I woke up this morning with a blood sugar of 205mg/dl. Very NOT OK. Before chemo it was between 65-85 mg/dl nearly every day, and rarely over 100 mg/dl (where it’s still tolerable). After getting off of all chemo, it’s been around 140; sometimes lower. I don’t know what’s going on this morning.
Ever since being on chemo, my blood sugar control has been totally nuts. There has been no control, but oddly, my A1C in February was 6.7, or around there. I was amazed. I expected it to be over 7 for sure. Usually it’s well below 6. I’ve had great control, with a fair amount of effort. My body is still figuring out it’s new normal since the leukemia. The blood sugars (and need for more insulin) don’t help the weight loss issue. Insulin stores fat. I need to lose the forty pounds I gained while on chemo.
I have to admit, my carb counting has been ‘fair’. I know the carb counts of most things, and do look at labels, but I’m not doing the extensive counting that I did before. I need to get back to doing that. I don’t want to go blind, lose a leg, or have kidney failure. Nope. Don’t want those on top of what’s already wrong with me; I’d end up in assisted living before I’m 50 years old.
I took the usual amount of NovoLog insulin this morning, and added a bit because of the psycho fasting blood sugar. Now (2 hours later), my blood sugar is 135mg/dl. I’m glad it’s going down, but not sure I’d planned for it to drop that fast. It still needs to get considerably lower before it’s a problem. I’ll be sticking my fingers a lot today. It’s sort of a ‘sick day’, except I can’t figure out what is ‘sick’…
Chemo changed a lot of what had been controlled: my weight, my blood sugars, and my insulin dose. I’ve been off of chemo for nearly a year (11 months). I’m going to have to go back to the rigid counting and figure out the new insulin:carb ratios. My I:C ratios had been so steady before. It’s been nearly 2 1/2 years since the initial diagnosis. I have to remember my ‘old normal’ way of dealing with the diabetes, and apply it again to this ‘new normal’… which isn’t normal at all. It’s a lot like starting from square one.
My physical situation is such that sitting exercises are all I can do. If I walk more than the distances inside my apartment, I have to use a walker. Or shopping cart. My balance gets iffy. So exercising is a problem. I’d love to walk around the neighborhood on cooler days. That IS my ‘old normal’ and ‘usual decrepit’ – LOL. That is back to ‘normal’, which hasn’t been ‘normal’ for a long time. I’d torn my left ACL and meniscus (mildly) the summer before the leukemia diagnosis, and because of beginning to feel lousy (thinking I was just being a slug) I postponed the knee replacement that was recommended. When those big ball players roll around whimpering or screaming on the field after their knees go out, they aren’t being weenies- that HURTS. I’d been using a walker in my apartment up until the morning I was admitted to the hospital when I was diagnosed with leukemia. Being physically limited is nothing new. Anyway, I’d like to exercise more, but it isn’t generally safe.
So, I’ve got to buckle down and get these blood sugars under control. I’ve got to lose weight. And I’ve got to get it done without triggering old eating disorder habits. Sometimes it seems overwhelming. Sigh. But I’ve got to do something.