Introducing Princess “Shelby” Noel Wigglebutt

I finally found a miniature schnauzer puppy !  After 2 months of looking online and in the local newspaper, I finally found a puppy that was exactly what I was looking for.  I had to do a long day of driving WAY outside of my comfort zone with the dysautonomia and joint/pain issues- and it’sContinue reading “Introducing Princess “Shelby” Noel Wigglebutt”

The Night Before Christmas…

…my new puppy was born, though I didn’t know it until today.  My dad was here, and I was going through online ads for miniature schnauzer puppies. Most were either too far away, had something funky going on with their eyes, or some had disconnected phone numbers. Not a good sign.  Then I found anContinue reading “The Night Before Christmas…”

People Who Literally Make Me Sick (Dysautonomia)

That may sound ridiculous, but within the walls of dysautonomia,  anything that triggers a fight or flight response is something to be avoided at all costs. Unfortunately, that includes  avoiding people who come across as harshly combative, unapproachable, condescending, promoting hate, and/or having no respect for anybody but themselves and their very narrow circle ofContinue reading “People Who Literally Make Me Sick (Dysautonomia)”

Mandy Meltdowns

My sweet miniature schnauzer Mandy died seven weeks ago yesterday, on December 27th, 2012.  She was my sole companion for all of the years on disability, and absolute joy for the 11.75 years I had her with me.  Most of my human friends are in Texas, and I’ve been pretty much isolated since going onContinue reading “Mandy Meltdowns”

Blood Sugar Dump And Falling Into Walls

I didn’t feel that great yesterday.  Nothing specific, just a headache (which isn’t unusual for me at all), some queasiness, and just not feeling right.  So, I limited what I ate to jello, mashed potatoes, and other bland foods that provided some carbs to deal with the basal insulin dose I take twice a day.Continue reading “Blood Sugar Dump And Falling Into Walls”

The Life of Cancer

When I was diagnosed with acute promyelocytic leukemia (APL) in late March 2010, I didn’t realize that cancer has a life of its own.  I expected to go through chemotherapy, have regular follow-up care, and move on. Done.  I’m already disabled, so I didn’t really think that cancer was going to be all that bad.Continue reading “The Life of Cancer”

My Friend Gretchen

I moved back to my hometown in late 2002, and left my friends of 17 years back in Texas. I got a nursing (RN) job fairly quickly, but then the dysautonomia and seizures made it impossible for me to continue working, even after finding a ‘desk job’ as an RN. I passed out too oftenContinue reading “My Friend Gretchen”

Another Season of Dysautonomia

It’s so frustrating to be at home watching a movie, and begin to feel the familiar feeling of one side of my face being on fire, my heart rate being erratic, and then the general ‘unwell’ feeling.  I’m at home !  I’m in charge of the thermostat (at 64 degrees).  I’m not moving around whenContinue reading “Another Season of Dysautonomia”

When I Wasn’t Me

For the most part, I’ve dealt with the rape (January 10, 1987- Austin, TX) relatively well. Initially, there was a lot to deal with to prepare for the trial, and after that I just tried to get back to ‘normal’ (nothing is ever the same after being raped).  I coasted. For two decades.  I knewContinue reading “When I Wasn’t Me”

Talking About Things That Hurt…

I think that for the most part, people mean well.  Even with blinding avoidance of some topics, I don’t think malice is behind what seems like apathy, or even repulsion.  My guess is that it’s more a matter of just not knowing how to approach some topics, especially if that topic is linked to someContinue reading “Talking About Things That Hurt…”