To: Shiloh the Miniature Schnauzer

Oh, sweet girl… it’s been over 2 months since I said goodbye to you, and the pain of making that decision has been so hard.  I know it was the best for you, me, and your ‘sister’ Shelby.   But I do miss you. I’m always going to care about you.  And, I’m glad youContinue reading “To: Shiloh the Miniature Schnauzer”

Suicide Secrets- Time to Spill It… Secrecy Just Makes It Worse

With all of the suicides of notable people in the last couple of weeks, it has stirred up my own battles with depression and suicidal thoughts.  Not to worry- nothing ‘serious’ has gone on for years.  When the physical pain becomes more harsh than usual, or there are more health scares, I do think aboutContinue reading “Suicide Secrets- Time to Spill It… Secrecy Just Makes It Worse”

It’s Been Almost a Year Since Dad Died…

I don’t think a day has gone by that I haven’t remembered that horrible last day, and yet the month leading up to that was kind of a trial run for what  Dad would deal with if he ended up in a nursing home… I’d never wish that on him.  There are a lot ofContinue reading “It’s Been Almost a Year Since Dad Died…”

The Disaster That Was 2016

I’m not in a good mood.  This year has sucked rocks.  I won’t go through the myriad of shootings, public riots, celebrity deaths, cop shootings,  “unarmed” shootings, local crime rate, racial tension,   blah, blah, blah.  All that does is make me dislike humans more intensely (and with the racial stuff, it’s usually the arrogantContinue reading “The Disaster That Was 2016”

Furnishing a House And Keeping My Parents Living There With Me Through Memories and Decorative Items

The past few weeks since dad died have been the days I’ve been most dreading for quite a while (starting in earnest last summer when he was too tired to go on a private yacht for a week.  He claimed seasickness- that didn’t fly as he’d been in the navy and had a sailboat withContinue reading “Furnishing a House And Keeping My Parents Living There With Me Through Memories and Decorative Items”

My Earthly Rock…. Part Two

This is the hard part… it’s hard to write these memories, that are so fresh. Dad was transferred to the rehab hospital on March 24, 2016,  three weeks after being admitted to the hospital.   He was very nervous about the rehab hospital not wanting to take him because of various symptoms associated with theContinue reading “My Earthly Rock…. Part Two”

My Earthly Rock… Part One

The last couple of months have been heart wrenching.  My dad died.  He was 83 years young, and until the end, he was very active.  A couple of weeks before he went to the hospital, he drove from south Florida to northern Illinois in two days, covering the distance from south Georgia to home inContinue reading “My Earthly Rock… Part One”

Ramblings of 2015

Here it is… New Year’s Eve.  Getting ready for 2016.   It’s been a bumpy 2015, though I realize I still have a lot to be thankful for.  A lot has happened.  A few things are still being diagnosed.    There have been family changes.   And like always, I seem to manage… but it’sContinue reading “Ramblings of 2015”

I Just Need To Write…

It’s been a weird few weeks in a lot of ways, and I’ve been exhausted.  Today when I woke up, I got the message from one of my cousins that her dad (my late mother’s brother) had passed away.  He’d been sick for a relatively short period of time (well, that we know of- heContinue reading “I Just Need To Write…”

Tears From Cold Water

August 1, 2000.  That was the day my half-brother died.  I’d never met him, but since I’d learned about him in 1982, his 5th grade photo always had a prominent place  on my dresser (along with that of his younger brother, a half-brother I have met, though we don’t ‘do fractions’ very well… he’s myContinue reading “Tears From Cold Water”