I simply don’t trust people anymore. Even many I’ve known for decades. After the 2016 election, I have no faith in the capacity of humans to discern evil or the myriad of other negatives that the UNpopular vote put into the formerly respectable Oval Office. I have no capacity to understand ANY reasoning that supports “it”. It’s proven itself repeatedly to be a lying, xenophobic, ignorant, delusional, racist, PROUD crotch grabbing, family splitting, heartless buffoon. I will NEVER understand how that is acceptable !! Granted, the choices were limited in 2016, but the SCOTUS nomination ‘perk’ wasn’t enough for me to sell my soul to the devil. Das Tweetenführer (<– saw that term originally on a comment section online; not original). The Hitler of America. SCOTUS nominations are a lame excuse… just because something is legal doesn’t mean those who don’t like it must participate.
SO, I’ve cut out most people from my life. Either they’re in the “it”-lover camp- and tell me I’m overreacting, “It’s not that bad”, etc. I’m JUST as entitled to my feelings and beliefs as the it-philes are to theirs. Do NOT tell me what I “should” believe… I’m not any of you. I don’t CARE what you think about me. If you refuse to “let” me have my beliefs and feelings, then I refuse any relationship that has to be censored. I will never (nor do I want to) understand the line of reasoning that goes into a vote for ‘it’. But, I do understand that it is the right to choose a buffoon, if that’s who best represents whoever voted for it. Does ‘it’ represent YOUR values? Really?
I used to vote GOP the vast majority of the time (I don’t care what party the County Clerk or Coroner belong to – if they keep their noses clean, they could be from the Generic Party for all I care). NEVER again. They allowed this national disaster. They allowed an absolute douche on the ballot. I honestly think that suicide is a rational option if ‘it’ would get re-elected in 2020 (should ‘it’ not be in prison). I can’t stand this Divided States of UnAmerica. This is not the country I grew up in, and if I weren’t physically limited, I’d be gone. Canada, UK… somewhere civilized. I would NEVER choose this as a place to live.
The divisiveness FROM the GOP during the Obama years was just as nasty- and likely racially motivated (so worse) based on comments from people I actually know. That sickens me. Something changed on January 21, 2017… and I don’t think the US can recover. That would fit in prophetically with Revelations (the US wasn’t ever intended to be the Boss of the Planet). This little experiment of the USA is done. It failed. Gonna be like the Berlin Wall coming down, or the break up of the USSR. A bunch of complainers in England thought things would be better here. What fools ! I resent the lot of them. Should be the Pilgrim statues torn down- not the Confederate ones that erase part of our history that is uncomfortable at best- and downright painful for those who were treated as property. Do we want to negate THEIR reality?
I resent this “era” of treating the world like crap. Our allies are leaving like rats off a sinking ship. And they are right to do so. Guilt by association. I don’t ‘do’ that either. I don’t blindly follow humans, like the GOP seems to do. Tow the party line = don’t think for yourself, or check the accuracy of comments/accusations. Take the easy way out- and just be told who to vote for… that will NEVER be me (and never has been).
I sincerely think about when would be the final blow for me, that would make me consider ‘opting out’. The separation of those little kids from their parents was bad for my ‘opting out’ thoughts. It’s a MISDEMEANOR to crossi the border illegally (non port of entry) though when entering at a port of entry, it’s legal to request asylum. A MISDEMEANOR means losing one’s kids? How is that American? This country is based on immigrants (who trashed the indigenous people and treated them much like property, by telling them where they could live and lead their lives per their beliefs). The settlers in this country STOLE it.
I’m at the point that I really don’t give a shit what people think of how I think. The people I grew up around (evangelicals) weren’t as rabid as they are now- but I don’t trust them. My love for God is unchanged, as is He. It’s the humans. Many actually cause physical pain. and in the remainder of this term, it’s hard to tell how much more damage “it” will do. And now “camps” are being set up to house the families (the ones lucky enough to ever see their kids again)… arbeit macht frei. Dachau anyone?
Am I proud of my intense feelings? Absolutely not. But I understand the ‘why’ of them. And it’s not malicious. It’s humiliation and horror. It’s compassion for the targeted (our own citizens as well). It’s everything “they” stand for by condoning ‘it’. This isn’t home. This is a nightmare. And the MAJORITY POPULAR voters are hostages. This is the first time that I remember that the person in the Oval Office actually vilifies anybody who disagrees, and creates it’s own alternate universe- where its followers genuflect and drool in its presence, and hang on its every word or tweet. I don’t think ‘it’ has ever read the Constitution, and has no idea how to ‘uphold, defend, and protect’ it. This has been one huge paid golf game for ‘it’. And the crimes perpetrated against non-it followers are celebrated by “its” Kool-Aid consumers.
This isn’t “normal”. It’s great that we have diversity in politics… but it should never be cruel. It should never have a “f-you” attitude towards any of our allies, or the brutality of “zero tolerance”. What happened to moderates? What happened to “United”? And for the “Christian” voters…. how is cruelty something Jesus would support? What about the serial affairs? What about ‘it’ not believing in asking God for forgiveness? That should have been a huge red flag for actual born again Christians who claim to support this evil. Read Matthew 6-7… does that sound like the GOP? Nothing in the GOP reflects Biblical principles. Compassion and charity aren’t in their wheelhouse.
Thank you to Call The Midwife, for hours of reprieve.
DIVIDED? We’re gonna fall like lead through tissue paper. I already mourn the death of the United States of America.