Feeling My Body Fail

This has been a rough six months on top of a weird twenty years.  I’d learned to deal with diabetes, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, nocturnal seizures (left temporal), degenerative joint disease, GERD, and the temporary effects of acute disorders like multiple pulmonary emboli (all three lobes of my right lung and right pulmonaryContinue reading “Feeling My Body Fail”

It’s Been A Bad Few Months…

I’m so frustrated with the increase in limitations over the last few months, especially with my grandma not doing well (and wanting to see her).  I haven’t said a lot recently, but it’s not because things are better.  More things are falling apart.  My aunt called this morning to offer to come and get meContinue reading “It’s Been A Bad Few Months…”

Sometimes Being Homebound and Isolated is Really Hard

Considering what has gone on with three people who have been very important in my life this year (they died), I have to know that I’m very fortunate.  Two had battles with horrible cancers between 9 and 10 months long, and one had a sudden collapse with an aortic dissection, but lived two more days….Continue reading “Sometimes Being Homebound and Isolated is Really Hard”

Eating Ghosts and Body Image

I haven’t been diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder, and I don’t really think I’d qualify since I’m actually a physical mess- no imagined defects. But I don’t like my body at all right now.  I need to lose weight, and I have to admit, I have had times when the ghosts of past eating disordersContinue reading “Eating Ghosts and Body Image”

Sorting Through The Symptoms…

 I’m whining.  *** Warning *** I’m not chipper and smiley right now… Read at your own risk 😉 This has been a weird few weeks.  Actually, things started to get worse with the dysautonomia during chemo for leukemia, which was fairly expected, but it’s getting worse.  Chemo messes with autonomic dysfunction, especially with diabetics, or thoseContinue reading “Sorting Through The Symptoms…”

Turning 50… and Already On Medicare For Six Years

I turned 50 years old.  I can’t figure out where the time went !  I certainly don’t feel ‘old’, and think that 50 is the new 30, even with the physical limitations I’ve had for years.  I’ve never been one to get all depressed or stressed by ‘big’ birthdays- 21, 30, 40…. but I’m notContinue reading “Turning 50… and Already On Medicare For Six Years”

What NOT To Say To Someone Who Is Disabled or Dealing With a Serious Illness

I think most people are trying to be helpful or supportive when they make comments to someone about their health and/or treatments, but there are some things that  those who have not experienced the situation should just stay quiet about.  Some things are just not helpful, and some are ‘enough’ to ruin a relationship.  TheseContinue reading “What NOT To Say To Someone Who Is Disabled or Dealing With a Serious Illness”

Crazy Few Months…

I’m tired.  The last few months have been fairly miserable.  I’ve been on Nutrisystem since the latter part of May of this year.  That was all going well with more than 30 pounds lost and kept off even through the crazy stuff.  Then, sometime in late July (I think) I started having daily headaches withContinue reading “Crazy Few Months…”

Blood Sugar Dump And Falling Into Walls

I didn’t feel that great yesterday.  Nothing specific, just a headache (which isn’t unusual for me at all), some queasiness, and just not feeling right.  So, I limited what I ate to jello, mashed potatoes, and other bland foods that provided some carbs to deal with the basal insulin dose I take twice a day.Continue reading “Blood Sugar Dump And Falling Into Walls”

Tis The Season…..

….to have all sorts of things churned up.  I don’t really get ”depressed’ over the holiday season, but more a vague sense of being overwhelmed since there are a lot of ‘anniversaries’ around this time.  This year added a new one with the death of my amazing, crazy companion- my miniature schnauzer Mandy, who diedContinue reading “Tis The Season…..”