Suicide Attempt: Those Who Knew Never Asked…

…why I attempted suicide in September 1982.  I later found out that it was a big secret from  family (or close friends) who seemed like they’d be obvious to inform (as in why I’d suddenly dropped off the face of the earth and was no longer at the University of Illinois, Urbana-Champaign campus).  And, forContinue reading “Suicide Attempt: Those Who Knew Never Asked…”

Being a Nurse Family Member…

Most nurses know that the worst family members of patients are doctors, lawyers, and other nurses!  We know what to look for. We know what is standard operating procedure. We know what is correct technique. We know what the alarms and numbers mean. We know how things are supposed to be done…and we don’t wantContinue reading “Being a Nurse Family Member…”

When Dad Had Surgery

Those who have read my blogs know that my family is no stranger to various cancers and health issues.  My mom had bilateral mastectomies (separate surgeries), a lung resection, and brain tumor removed- all cancer. She also had chemotherapy and radiation. I’m a medical train wreck, including leukemia (APL/ AML- sub-type M3), diabetes, dysautonomia, multipleContinue reading “When Dad Had Surgery”

Emergency Room From Hell

There is a local emergency room that actually scares me.  I’m not the only one- whenever I mention its name to someone (even my new oncologist who works for the same organization) the reaction is usually “Oh, I know what you mean. I/my brother/mom/ dad/friend/ etc went there and they almost killed me/them.”  Their postedContinue reading “Emergency Room From Hell”

The Violence of A Second Chance: CPR and Resuscitation

When someone ‘codes’ on TV, everything is over and done with before the next commercial break.  In real life, it’s a horrendous process that generally creates more problems than it was supposed to fix. When I worked in hospitals or doing admissions at a nursing home, I often had to explain what goes on; peopleContinue reading “The Violence of A Second Chance: CPR and Resuscitation”

Exit Stage Vertical

Yesterday , Mary Kay Meeker left this earth from an ICU bed at a hospital in Waukesha, WI (USA).   Mary Kay’s hand was taken by her husband, and placed in the hand of God as she took her last breath after being taken off life support.  In that moment, she saw glory and aContinue reading “Exit Stage Vertical”

Into the Hands of God

Unless something extremely supernatural happens very soon, an amazing woman will be leaving this earth.  Her husband will take her hand, that he has been holding with the determination that only comes from lifelong love and endearment, and place it into the hands of God.  From there, she will enter eternity completely healed, and withContinue reading “Into the Hands of God”

Hold On To Hope, Or Face Possibilities

I’m waiting, along with many others, for news about a dear woman who went into cardiac arrest last week, and is in a coma as a result.  The day they warmed her back up from the induced hypothermia (used to minimize oxygen demands on the brain while healing from CPR), her reflexes were present. TheContinue reading “Hold On To Hope, Or Face Possibilities”

Could You Just Call And Check On Me In The Morning?

That’s really all I’d gone over to ask my neighbor.  Thank goodness she could tell something was wrong that couldn’t wait until morning.  I had been having a lot of low blood pressure episodes, but this felt very strange, and I was a bit afraid of going to bed and not have someone check toContinue reading “Could You Just Call And Check On Me In The Morning?”