Chronic Pain in Its Various Forms…and Dysautonomia

While I’ve lost count of the exact number of days, this current ‘spell’ of severe headaches has gone on for at least 4-5 weeks, with maybe five or six days of no headaches at all in any given day.  Of course, it isn’t ‘just’ a headache.  I get the dreaded nausea along with it.  Continue reading “Chronic Pain in Its Various Forms…and Dysautonomia”

Professional Pain Patients….When They Are ‘Family’

I just read some posts from a cousin I have no contact with because of her toxic and totally egocentric ‘interaction’ with people.  The posts were on a support and encouragement page for another (mutual) cousin who has recently been diagnosed with colon cancer.  She has had several months of pain and increasing symptoms thatContinue reading “Professional Pain Patients….When They Are ‘Family’”

Just One of Those Months

For the past week and a half, I’ve had some moderately severe jaw pain on the same side where I broke a tooth, and had said tooth repaired, requiring me to open my mouth wide enough to swallow the Hindenburg.  It hurt.  But a few shots of novocaine, and I blew it off.  Until theContinue reading “Just One of Those Months”

In Memory of Madeline Spenrath, R.N.

I just found out on Thursday, April 25, 2013 that one of my favorite nursing supervisors had died.  I’d talked to her several times over the last few years when we were both going through various cancer diagnoses, but hadn’t talked to her in a while.  She had been through breast cancer, and thought sheContinue reading “In Memory of Madeline Spenrath, R.N.”

The End of Life As I Knew It

Nine years ago, on April 6, 2004, life as I knew it stopped.  It was my last day working as a full time registered nurse because of medical disability. I tried to go back to work a few months later, but it was a total failure, even though I was working back into full timeContinue reading “The End of Life As I Knew It”

The Life of Cancer

When I was diagnosed with acute promyelocytic leukemia (APL) in late March 2010, I didn’t realize that cancer has a life of its own.  I expected to go through chemotherapy, have regular follow-up care, and move on. Done.  I’m already disabled, so I didn’t really think that cancer was going to be all that bad.Continue reading “The Life of Cancer”

Mom’s Final Days…Please Excuse Me While I Bawl My Eyes Out

This is still rough.  And yes, it’s long. Mom had been through so much, and survived.  She had been through breast cancer, pre-cancerous tumors in the other breast (so bilateral mastectomies when all was said and done), reconstruction, metastasis to her right lung (so part of her lung removed), and then metastasis to her brainContinue reading “Mom’s Final Days…Please Excuse Me While I Bawl My Eyes Out”