“You Look OK… “

Well, that’s great !  I’m glad I don’t look like I feel…  I’d have to worry about the dogs mistaking me for a fire  hydrant or other excretory depository. I’m not sure what THIS looks like:  – autonomic dysfunction: inconsistent regulation of blood pressure, heart rate, temperature – diabetes w/complications on insulin – degenerative jointContinue reading ““You Look OK… “”

The End of Life As I Knew It

Nine years ago, on April 6, 2004, life as I knew it stopped.  It was my last day working as a full time registered nurse because of medical disability. I tried to go back to work a few months later, but it was a total failure, even though I was working back into full timeContinue reading “The End of Life As I Knew It”

Mandy Meltdowns

My sweet miniature schnauzer Mandy died seven weeks ago yesterday, on December 27th, 2012.  She was my sole companion for all of the years on disability, and absolute joy for the 11.75 years I had her with me.  Most of my human friends are in Texas, and I’ve been pretty much isolated since going onContinue reading “Mandy Meltdowns”

Suicide Attempt: Those Who Knew Never Asked…

…why I attempted suicide in September 1982.  I later found out that it was a big secret from  family (or close friends) who seemed like they’d be obvious to inform (as in why I’d suddenly dropped off the face of the earth and was no longer at the University of Illinois, Urbana-Champaign campus).  And, forContinue reading “Suicide Attempt: Those Who Knew Never Asked…”

Dysautonomia and Disability- Social Security and Medicare

According to some, I’m nothing but a leech on society.  Here in the US, needing help is seen as being nothing more than a parasitic slug that simply doesn’t want to work. There is no distinction made between those who are lazy (a minority of the people on government assistance), and those who have workedContinue reading “Dysautonomia and Disability- Social Security and Medicare”

Tis The Season…..

….to have all sorts of things churned up.  I don’t really get ”depressed’ over the holiday season, but more a vague sense of being overwhelmed since there are a lot of ‘anniversaries’ around this time.  This year added a new one with the death of my amazing, crazy companion- my miniature schnauzer Mandy, who diedContinue reading “Tis The Season…..”

Dementia Wins By A Landslide !

I worked in various nursing homes during the years I worked as an RN, starting in 1985.  I worked as a ‘floor’ nurse, charge nurse, supervisor, and administrative (desk) nurse.  Nursing homes really are quite delightful places to work, and while nursing home nurses are often looked down upon by hospital nurses (I’ve done thatContinue reading “Dementia Wins By A Landslide !”

ROFL at Dementia…or Die Crying

My mom ended up with dementia as a result of radiation for brain cancer. She had the tumor surgically removed, but they wanted to zap the surrounding area a bit to make sure they nuked everything that might cause trouble later.  Seems nuking a brain doesn’t always go without issues.  I was 1200+ miles away,Continue reading “ROFL at Dementia…or Die Crying”

I Miss Nursing, Really, I DO !!

When I was still working as a registered nurse, I don’t know how many times I heard, or how many times I said, “I wish I could retire NOW”.  I graduated in 1985 from an ADN program, and very soon after getting my license (we had to wait for snail mail back then) moved awayContinue reading “I Miss Nursing, Really, I DO !!”